Loneliness.
“Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.”
-Mother Theresa
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have someone to share my life with. Someone who can hold me after a long day at work. Someone who can rejoice in my boys’ growth with me. Someone who can be a Dad to my boys. Someone who I can pour my heart out to. Someone to make me breakfast every once in a while. Someone to take over when I feel like I’m falling apart.
Isaiah started walking this week. My 10 1/2 month old baby is walking all over the place. He’s getting into everything. When he took his first steps, I called all of my sisters and told them. I called my little brother Adam and told him. They were all excited…but part of me so desired to have a Special Someone to be excited with me. I mean, I couldn’t even call my own Mother because she doesn’t care. I wish I had someone to sit by my side and enjoy these milestones with me.
Being a single Mom is brutal work. I feel like I’m failing my boys day in and day out. I love them with all of my heart, but how much better off would they be with a Dad in their life too? Will I ever learn to open my heart and trust someone? I’ve got an incredible guy at church who is so interested in persuing something with me, but I’m so scared…
I’m so tired of being lonely.
*hugs*
He’ll come. don’t be afraid. Trust yourself. Trust what God has been doing through you. You are not the same woman you were two years ago.
And I am so excited to hear abotu Isaiah!
and there is absolutely no way you are failing them. You are one of the most sweet-spirtied mothers I have ever met.
*hugs forever*
much love <3
-Linz